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The Burden of High Expectations: A Confession.

​ The day I lost my spark, the world went empty. Souls that were once filled with hope and eyes that once burned with excitement suddenly turned hollow . The more I realized what was happening, the worse I felt. I was lost. I had drifted so far away from who I was supposed to be that I could barely recognize myself. “What brought you this far away?” I wish I knew. I was trapped in a haze of confusion. My mind pushed beyond a boundary I couldn't describe, couldn't understand, or maybe, simply refused to face. But after days of self-doubt, I finally arrived at the one word that represented everything. Failing. What hurt the most wasn’t what happened to me. It was what I did to the people who placed their hope in my hands. I was selfish. I put myself first without any real priority, blinded by my own hype. I was overjoyed with my past success, and I let my guard down. It was entirely my fault. “A winner is just a failure who tried one more time.” I don’t doubt that. I’ve f...
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Patah Hati

​ Patah Hati Karya oleh: Lya'e Tiap detik, ku memikirkan.. betapa indahnya dunia asmaraloka, hubungan kita yang dahulu. Namun ku sadar, kini hanyalah tinggal kenangan, yang tidak akan berulang lagi. Begitu sukar, melupakanmu wahai nirmalaku. Engkau bagaikan bianglala dalam hidupku. Ku memandang akan jumantara, Lantas, ia mengingatkanku tentang segala perkara yang telah kita lalui bersama. Ya, ianya renjanaku. Setiap kenangan kita bersama, telahpun aku simpannya rapi di kotak memoriku. Andai memang kita tidak akan bersama, ketahuilah, akan ku selalu mendoakanmu, untuk kebahagiaanmu. Meskipun bersama yang lain. Akan ku ikhlaskan kau pergi.
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A Society Too Dumb for Its Geniuses

Do you ever wonder why we need to be intelligent or smart to fit into a certain society? Couldn’t we all just be dumb and create a dumb society together? This has been stuck in my mind for years. All those countless times spent studying, all the hard work that I do — what is it for, after all? If I’m dumb, I’m going to fit into a dumb society, but why am I working so hard to fit into a good one? As far as I observe the world where I live, I’ve noticed that certain people are trying so hard to quit the dumb society. (Although there are people who have already accepted the fate that they’re dumb and don’t have the courage to change.) They don’t want to be dumb because they are surrounded by a bunch of smart people who judge them for being dumb. Certain smart people think dumb people are mostly poor, troublemakers, disgraceful, and carry lots of other negative sentiments. This leads us to one question: “Are we learning for the sake of knowledge, or to be accepted by society?” Will being s...
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Deactivating socials—is it the peace that i’ve been looking for?

I deactivated my main account 1 month ago. deactivated my second account 3 weeks ago, and my third account 2 weeks ago. I also deleted tiktok from my main device. I change my number. I stopped unnecessary conversations. I avoid people as much as I can. I stop talking nonsense things that does not have a benefit—I changed. Is this the peace that I’ve been looking for before? I’m no longer stressing over dumb people with their dumbest opinion ever. I’m no longer watching people be doing cyber bullying on those platforms. I honestly felt a kind of peace that I never knew existed. Felt like a fresh one. Felt like a fresh start of my new journey and life. I indeed want to cut anyone that is unnecessary in my life. It’s not that I’m cutting them and no longer be a mutual. I mean if you want to contact me and ask a question—of course I’d be fine and answer it as usual. Although I’ll be avoiding any unnecessary questions. “The least you know the better”. After decades, I finally figured out wh...
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Hello—blog!

hi everyone, my name is weyaeoeoe hahaha (not my real name forshorr) im just going to write here because i felt like i need to and i want to—honestly because i love writing. i deactivated all of my sosials lately, so i dont have any platform to voice out my thoughts and feelings anymore :`) i dont need people to read my blog (i kinda prefer i can only write for me but nvm lol, none of my moots will found me here anyway)
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